“… when we think good thoughts, we think we are good; and when we think evil thoughts, we think we are evil, not realizing fully that it is not these thoughts but the inconceivable power of the Vow that makes our salvation possible” (Tannisho 8).
Sometimes everything in life seems to be flowing along nicely, and you feel in control, and then suddenly you are blindsided by some random blossoming of nasty conditioning and cause-and-effect. It happened to me just the other day when, very uncharacteristically and out of the blue, I got in a huge argument with someone. In hindsight, once the fight had blown over, it was possible to see some of the misunderstandings and miscommunications that brought it about. However hindsight tempts us to assume that we can avoid such situations in the future. I wouldn’t like to say that this is never true, as certainly we can learn from our experiences. In the end though we can never fully anticipate what will come our way. As such whatever our efforts towards self-improvement, harmony and so forth - we are never immune to the unpredictability of the co-dependently arising world.
This was driven home to me all the more on this occasion as, during the very fight itself that I was involved in, I heard that the decades long marriage of some people I know is breaking up. Such news, recieved in a moment of totally unexpected interpersonal strife, very much made me feel a kind of shadow over the future and an awareness that the dearly held anticipations of the future held in my heart are far from in my own power. At the same time though such feelings, which once would have scared me, were almost immediately followed by a flood of peace throughout my being as the utter finitude of my foresight and moral power was dissolved in the oceanic awareness of Otherness.
At that time, I recalled the words of the Tannisho, chapter 16, which by chance or synchronicity - who knows - I had read during my daily devotions (gongyo) only that morning:
On the assertion that whenever practicers of shinjin happen to become angry, or commit some misdeed, or dispute with fellow practicers, they must without fail go through a change of heart. This appears to reflect an attitude of seeking to attain birth by desisting from evil and performing good. For the person of wholehearted single practice of the nembutsu, change of heart occurs only once. People who have in ordinary life been ignorant of the true essence of the Primal Vow, which is Other Power, come to realize, through receiving Amida’s wisdom, that they cannot attain birth with the thoughts and feelings they have harbored up to then, so they abandon their former heart and mind and entrust themselves to the Primal Vow. This is what is meant by “change of heart.”
Suppose that attainment of birth were possible only by going through changes of heart day and night with every incident that occurred. In that case- human life being such that it is ends even before breath exhaled can be drawn in again- if we were to die without going through a change of heart and without abiding in a state of gentleness and forbearance, would not Amida’s Vow that grasps and never abandons us be rendered meaningless? Some claim with their lips that they entrust themselves to the power of the Vow and yet harbor in their hearts the thought that, even the though the Vow to save the evil is said to be beyond conceptual understanding, after all it saves the good person in particular; thus, doubting the power of the Vow, they lack the mind of entrusting themselves to Other Power, and are destined for birth in the borderland. How lamentable this is! If shinjin has become settled, birth will be brought about by Amida’s design, so there must be no calculating on our part. Even when we are evil, if we revere the power of the Vow all the more deeply, gentleheartedness and forbearance will surely arise in us through its spontaneous working (jinen). With everything we do, as far as birth is concerned, we should constantly and fervently call to mind Amida’s immense benevolence without any thought of being wise. Then the nembutsu will indeed emerge; this is jinen. Our not calculating is called jinen. It is itself Other Power.
It seems, however, that there are people who knowingly declare that jinen has a different meaning. This is deplorable.
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* As is traditional in (Japanese) Jodo Shin daily services I usually read out a letter from Rennyo’s Ofumi each day. However from time to time I also include other texts in the rotation of readings; such as Yuien’s Tannisho, and Shinran’s Mattosho.