Since last weekend I’ve been mulling over an animated and challenging discussion that I had with a mixture of Japanese, American and British friends in which it became apparent that I was looking at things from certain perspectives that were either alien to them or which they saw as problematic. As such this week I have been looking into my self and have so far identified two elements that seemed to have caused the difficulties in my debate with my Dharma friends; (a) an existentialist perspective on meaning and choice, (b) a Christian perspective on human purpose and ‘talents’ combined with an Aristotelian concept of ‘happiness’ as ‘flourishing’ (eudemonia).

(a) Existentialism – In discussion with my friends I often find my self looking at things in terms of freedom of choice. I have no idea why this has come about but whilst investigating it I discovered that my philosophical position in discussions often comes close to Existentialism.

For example, one thing that we discussed was the roles of men and women in various societies. I tried to suggest that the ideal society is one in which there is freedom of choice. Nearly everyone objected to my view pointing out that there always exist various limitations from unalterable universal laws through to practical matters of daily life. However I felt that they had missed my point. From an existential point of view limitations may radically shape one’s choices but choice itself remains. In fact every single moment of life includes the possibility of radical choice. Choice only becomes actualised, however, when there is desire or aspiration, and desires are fluid and possible to sublimate, re-direct or repress. As such it was my contention that there may be societies or communities where peoples’ desires are controlled via ideologies and cultural norms such that they do not realise that they have choices in life and will simply do what they are told. Awakening therefore, to me, must include realising the reality of existential choice. Indeed Shakyamuni Buddha’s total turn-around in life course from Prince to wandering monastic is a perfect illustration of someone awakening to the possibility of re-assessing one’s desires and thus one’s life choices. Of course though, and this is where Buddhism departs from existentialism, once he became completely free in this way he was able to realise his dependence on all other things and came to the recognition of what we term in Buddhism co-dependent origination or tariki.

In contrast to the above path, many of my Japanese friends come to the teaching of inter-dependence not through first pushing individual decision-choice to its limits but rather via traditional cultural notions of indebtedness (on) which are used by Japanese Buddhist teachers as a secular model by which to point towards the reality of tariki. For example Japanese Shin devotees are asked to reflect on ‘What has been done for me’ – particularly in the family and parent-child context – (this practice has reached the West in the form of naikan therapy). In cases where this recognition does not happen, however, the individual may be temporarily excluded by the family or group – usually voluntarily (by going to stay at a temple for a period of introspection or simply to live with the help of people who owe one no secular debt ‘on’ and thus cannot be taken for granted) but sometimes by rejection (a bit like the Western notion of ‘tough love’?). It is the contention in some Japanese Shin circles that this helps to bring people to a realisation of their inter-connectedness with all things, where secular notions of ‘on’ (‘you owe me this’, ‘I owe you that’) corresponding to the defiled everyday mind are transformed into spontaneous and pure gratitude and joy.

The appearance of these two different approaches to Shin seem to me to be found in British/American versus Japanese culture on a pattern illustrated by the ying-yang symbol. Most but not all of the former approach Shin from an existential point of view, and similarly most but not all Japanese encounter it via the communally embedded perspective.

Both paths also have their risks. Existentialism highlights the existence of radical choice in every moment but appears to pay little attention to the role of desire (though I am not a philosopher and may be wrong about this). As such there can be a tendency to falsely create and/or reify choices that need not exist. For example it is not uncommon for Western Buddhists to abandon their partners, families, jobs and so on to go and pursue the path. No doubt they have a sense of giving up certain desires in the service of higher ones. From a Shin Buddhist perspective though (and interestingly I think also a Christian and Neo-Platonist one?) all desires are simply fragmentary and misconceived aspects of the one great desire which is the Call of the Primal Vow. As such it is perfectly possible to heed the Call in one’s life as it is.

Conversely the downside of this latter perspective, and also of the usual Japanese approach to Shin Buddhism, is that it can lead to forgetfulness of choice, or at least ‘bad faith’ (where we are aware of but refuse choice), and a loss of moral and ethical responsibility in action. What is meant by ‘responsibility’ in Shin Buddhism and Existentialism is however I think rather different. As I understand it in existentialism all choices are equal and the individual is responsible for creating meaning out of the choices they make. This view however seems to suggest that the individual exists in isolation from the rest of existence. In contrast Buddhism says that because of inter-dependence and causation not all choices are equal and therefore we must attend carefully (in Shin Buddhism ‘hear deeply’) to reality in order to go forwards in the best way. In a sense this is what faith is; the confidence that there is a clear path through the myriad possible existential choices.

This brings me back to the start of this section where I was arguing with my friends about the importance of choice. In a Shin Buddhist community, although responsibility of choice lies with the individual, just as in existentialism, people must be encouraged to awaken to the awareness which allows them to identify the right way forwards … to awaken to Amida’s call. As such if we stress too much individual freedom without a sense of limitation on the one hand (as is common in the West), or social duty and indebtedness on the other (as in common in the East) then the opportunity for the devotee to encounter the Light will be compromised. The solution to this problem is already to be found in the Pure Land Buddhist teachings in which we are encouraged to experiment with our human desires and aspirations against the backdrop of Dharmakara’s absolutely pure desire, aspiration, activity and realisation. This is why the form of the Primal Vow must exist at the centre of the life of the Shin follower … namuamidabutsu.

(b) Purpose, ‘talents’ and ‘flourishing’

Related to the above discussion about desire and choice I have discovered that I hold a strong sense that people have certain talents or qualities and that happiness lies in the full play of this potential, rather than in the equanimity described by some Buddhist traditions or the ataraxia of the Hellenistic philosophies. In my discussion with my friends, one – a self-professed ‘non-religious’ person – kept on objecting to my views of freedom on the basis that we are always confronted by limitations. He suggested that my notions of choice and individual human talents were unrealistic and would lead inevitably to suffering, and that happiness or contentment lies in accepting ones circumstances. Initially I was a little surprised by the turn of the argument as my non-Buddhist friend appeared to be making a Buddhist argument against me, whereas I – supposedly a Buddhist - appeared superficially to be holding a kind of Christian and/or Greco-Roman view of a kind of unique ‘soul’ or ‘spirit’ in every being (though I granted that my notion of ‘talents’ was not so rigid as referring to ‘vocation’).

Later however I was thinking about the notion of ‘salvation’ in Shin Buddhism and in Takamaro Shigaraki’s ‘What is Shin Buddhism’ I read the following:

“[Two types of salvation are] acutely illustrated by an incident that happened in my village when a motorcycle rider fell from a high place and so injured his leg that he was told amputation was necessary. After this was done, and he had to walk with a crutch, he began to contemplate suicide because of his condition. While in this despair, he was encouraged to join a religion and after going into that religion, his life changed. The response of this religion to him was: “the accident you were in was so severe that you were supposed to lose two legs, but because of God ’s intervention you lost only one and should therefore be grateful for this one leg you have left.” The accident victim was finally able to believe this explanation was right and by accepting this, he experienced the salvation of that religion in his life.

In this example there is a personal change in his life-no miraculous cure, his leg is still gone-but his acceptance of it on the terms of that religion is very different from the personal change that occurs in the salvation of Shin Buddhism. In Shin, personal change does occur, but a personal change of a very different nature. There is not a change in terms of stopping crying over the loss of one leg to experience happiness over still having the other leg. Rather, it is a change that occurs at a deeper dimension in life. If I were that amputee, I would find it difficult to be grateful for the loss of that leg. I would carry that loss in my memory as pain and sorrow at my suffering. To be able to accept my suffering tranquilly as such in my life, to stand peacefully with all that burden of pain and suffering is the inner change, the salvation of Shin Buddhism.”

Shigaraki is very clear then that fulfillment in Shin Buddhism is beyond equanimity, ataraxia, and stoicism. Perhaps one could express it not so much accepting what is but fully being what is. That said, despite our disagreement my friend has helped me to see that I retain certain flawed notions of human potential and fulfillment. In Shin Buddhism creativity, the great living/practice (‘daigyo’) of the Nembutsu, arises inconceivably in the inter-play between what we are and what is. There are certain conditions which will shape our lives but there is no blueprint, and - what is more - what we may wish to design would fall far short of what the power-beyond-self can make of us. In trying to second-guess myself, to postpone creativity in a search for perfection I just place myself in limbo … in what Shinran called ‘the borderland’ … waiting for life to begin. Although the existentialist talks of ‘choice’ their point that angst indicates a failure to live authentically is a sound one.

I’m not sure what the merits of all these musings are but even if they have come out as incoherent rubbish I feel that in listening to me my friends have helped to refresh my heart-mind and for that I am very grateful. Comments also very much appreciated! Namuamidabutsu.

On Tuesday I learnt that my maternal grandfather - who has been gravely ill and suffering greatly - had died peacefully surrounded by his children. He followed his wife, my grandmother, who died a number of weeks ago. I’m really grateful for all the messages of sympathy and support that I have received from my Dharma friends. As my Dharma brother Jishin noted in a letter to me, though none of you knew my grandparents, their lives are inherently bound up with mine, and thus with yours too through me. Namuamidabutsu.

Speaking of Dharma friends, at this time of difficulties so many zenchishiki (good friends of the way) both old and new have appeared in my life this past month … reminding me of the Bodhisattvas suddenly appearing from under the earth in the Lotus Sutra. It’s really exciting. Good friends offer support and enrich our lives but there is also an even deeper dimension to Dharma friendship. Jodo Shin isn’t a solitary path but a communal one … as my teacher Rev. Kemmyo Taira Sato put it in one of his talks:

“Both the act of speaking and listening to others can conflict with or negate one’s own self-centred world and as such require courage, the courage to be willing to change. Enlightened by those who we encounter or reencounter, we become aware of ourselves - the miserable reality of our self-centred world. Other people operate as mirrors that illuminate us. When the ramparts and walls of the stronghold of our selfish consciousness collapse following this self-awakening, we open ourselves to the light that can now come in and fill our existence … Encounter is an event between individuals. The Buddha with his Name and Light appears through personal encounter. The Buddha is the foundation of every individual. So, if your consciousness is mature and you encounter someone who is enlightened, the Buddha or Dharma will appear very naturally.”

On the subject of encounter I’ve revised my ‘About the Author’ page a little, due to some comments from a new Dharma friend (will reply to you tonight Doug when I get on my home email), as it was confusing rather than clarifying various things. For the record I’m not a priest. Ordination as a priest is called Tokudoshiki. The ceremony I took part in was Kikyoshiki which is a refuge ceremony in which one formally becomes a Jodo Shin follower. Full ordination is not something that my current circumstances allow me to undertake though this may well change in the future.

I spent the weekend past staying at the temple and enjoyed catching up with many friends and making a few new ones. In particular I was delighted to make the acquaintance of a guest, Rev. Fumihito Ando; 32nd successor to the Myougenji temple of the Takaha-ha Jodo Shin lineage. His temple is one of, if not the, oldest surviving Jodo Shin temples and also has many precious relics such as original writings of Master Shinran. Rev. Fumihito has trained as a professional curator and is doing great work helping to preserve and share the history of our tradition. I’m hoping that his encounter with Three Wheels and myself will lead to great Dharma friendships.

At Three Wheels the annual ceremony of peace and reconciliation between Japanese and British war veterans was held and was moving as always. This year it was particularly poignant though for two additional reasons. Firstly that the number of surviving veterans has dwindled considerably and secondly that the meeting was attended for the first time by a Burmese Buddhist gentleman who offered a prayer for the Burmese people who were caught in the middle during the war.

Staying in the temple, which was purified physically and spiritually by the hard work of the sangha - and particularly the taya residents - really gave me a boost and sent me home with new energy and mental stability … something that has turned out to be very precious as news of the health of my various elderly relatives continues to be very negative. Sensei’s Dharma talk at the weekend was on the three Dharma seals and could not have been more appropriate to my current state of mind. Equally the example of the war veterans that I have met at Three Wheels in discovering the ultimate meaning of human relationships which transcends death and suffering is a great inspiration.

Namuamidabutsu.

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